I think it is hard for anyone to agree that the circumstances they are going through is the best things that happen to them. At least not when they are suffering in the moment. Or in pain. I know well because I am having an eczema attack , haha.From neck to right calf (size of my palm) to my right foot and elbows and even ribs. I had to cancel my training and forgo my running as well. 

To judge not the circumstances and believe with full faith that this is OVER. NOT will be over as it signifies a process, requiring a time period but it has already healed. This requires me constantly to elevate my thoughts to the highest level as if I could suspend myself from 3 feet high and see my physical body below in pain. It hurts me more to see my spouse upset and affected by it (who won't). But if I continue to add self condemnation , it merely adds fuel to the fire and that is not the right path to take in the first place.

Everything that happened to me happened through me and is for me. I read this in Neale Donald Walsch book - Communion with God. It is quite deep and I need time to work on this. But I think my trading chart might offer me some clues. 

This is the monthly chart of NZDCAD. Imagine if you would have invested in the beginning of 2009 and hold till current, you would have made 3670 pips. If one pip equal to US$1, then you would have made $3670 assuming you bought one contract and without any drawdown or profit taking. You merely hold for the entire duration. I am not sure if there are investors like that out there but most, I say most trading gurus that provide their analysis on forums, youtube, etc are looking at a much smaller time frame, 4H, 1H or even 15 minutes.

Now look at this 1H chart. Look at the volatility. Would you be confident trading the first or the second chart? Of course, all these are based on hindsight. That is my point. Months down the road, I would have look upon my eczema breakout that connects me to a bigger thing in my life and I would have said :" Had it not been this attack, I would not get this opportunity!". But the present pain I am going through, I have to endure it. 

So, it is extremely important that we do not let our eyes judge the appearance of things and draw the wrong conclusions. Now, of course I know in great suspicion that I am allergic to soya beans. I had been drinking this fresh for several months and was happy that I had found something healthy and inexpensive for my body. Who would have expect the breakout to be so horrific ? 

Because I am staying away from antibiotics and creams with chemicals, I know the healing process would take a while longer than usual. That is the window period that I must not be down, in fact remain cheerful and stay optimistic. 

I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. Romans 5:3-4

What is that glory? I have no idea, I too am asking for signs to be revealed. But I know a God that loves me unconditionally and always deliver his promise. So I know this blog page is merely a chapter that I am writing among the many wondrous I have in future. To allow this pain, inconvenience and whatever to project to other parts of my life would be unfair to myself, destroying my self-esteem. More importantly, what kind of lessons am I showing to my children? 
What will they think and do when they meet with such situations ? Whine and put fault with others? That is what daddy do when he was in that situation. They will emulate my actions and I must stay strong and firm in my conviction that I am healed 100%. It was my eyes that play trick on me. 

I am running as usual, enjoying the breeze and scenery around me. The after run effect was the best, I love it ! Things are better than before, family, career, health, all aspects of my life. I am blessed in so many ways. Thank you Father !!!

The uncontrolled, ungoverned use of thought and feeling has brought about all kinds of discord, sickness and distress. Few, however, believe this, and keep going on and on continually creating by their ungoverned thought and desire, chaos in their worlds; when they could as easily as a breath face about, using their thought constructively with the motive power of Divine Love, and build for themselves a Perfect Paradise within the period of two years. - (source : I am Discourses - Godfre Ray King)

This paragraph is very inspiring as I was reading this book recently. The same mind, if we are to use it for constructive purposes will produce healthy thoughts which we would then witness it in our external world. Because I see myself living to 120 years old and happily attending my two kids' wedding and many many birthdays celebrations, it become clear and easy for me to be working out my body to achieve that goal. This include my 20 chin-ups, running and daily prayer walking. Also my pescetarain diet has been serving me well since I make a decision to cut off dairy products, meat and coffee from my diet. I had not encounter cough, flu, fever, etc for the last 10 months or so and I strongly believe it would go on and on.

Once the physical body is back into action, things start to roll well naturally. Next is to work on the mental and spiritual mind, casting away all the negativity by using the reviewing  and the 321 methods I had learnt. Reading widely from many ancient leaders and the Bible has kept me positive and provide me a good hiding out where I can draw inspiration, encouragement and revelation. 

So if today you are down with all sorts of sickness, be it diabetes, back pain, eczema, hypertension, etc , STOP searching for the next better pill or medicine that can bring you back to your perfect health. Our mind, if use correctly, is the best doctor in the world. It is ironical that we continue searching for the truth when it lies within us. Why are we placing more faith in others and doubt ourselves? 

Here's what the Bible says; Don't you realize that all of you together are the temple of God and that the Spirit of God lives in you? 1 Corinthians 3:16

Let's rationalise this a bit deeper. A self-fulfilling prophecy is a prediction that directly or indirectly causes itself to become true, by the very terms of the prophecy itself, due to positive feedback between belief and behavior. hNow, if that is true, then would not taking the medicine, attending follows-up and treating yourself as a patient, make you think and believe yo are one? And days after days, weeks after weeks, would that actions not become cast in stone to form a habit that is difficult to break? Conversely, it is also true when we shift our attitude towards one of perfect health, where all pain and body ache are no longer in our body. Live in the body that you want. For example, I hear people saying:
Wow you look radiant and healthy, you don't look your age and you look good!!

Hear these sentences from your loved ones and friends and how happy that makes you feel. Say I am healthy, I am strong daily, increasing your conviction by the minute. Each time, doubt sets in, replace it with I am healthy, I am strong, saying louder and with more intensity that you hear yourself saying it.

Do not go about your days thinking of anything that involves medication, check-ups, hospitals, etc. Any words, sentences that falls under this category get it off your mind and replace it with thoughts of health, joy and peace.  If you are healthy and able walking would you be travelling with your family? If yes, think of a place that you like to visit with them, see yourself inside the scene, buying the tickets, preparing for the flight. Or you love eating and because of your sickness, you can't. Now see how happy you are celebrating your pink of health with your friends, eating your favourite food. Listen , listen carefully to what these people say. Are they jealous and curious how you did it ? How does all these make you feel?

Do this exercise of healthy thinking morning, noon and night. Make it a daily habit, draw ,sing, act it out , sketch, write ,whatever that you feel comfortable to express that thought of perfect harmony in you. Like me, I enjoy writing and pen down my thoughts on this blog to record my achievements and share my joy with others. 

​Why not be fearless?

 I attended a talk long time ago and remembered the trainer said something like ; there is only 2 types of pain in this world. The pain of regret and the pain of discipline. 

Regret comes when we wish to do something but for some reason, we did not do it and thereafter regret for not doing it.  We often hear people say things like "Had I done this.......then I would.........."or "If only I knew, then......" It is as if the person wish to have some form of certainty before committing himself to do it. It could be fear, lack of commitment, etc. 

A common example would be you had a casual conversation with friends about your new business idea. They thought it was crap and lack depth. You took their words hard but did not do much about it. 6 months later, you saw your business idea being implemented. You are likely to regret not spending more time and resource to get it started now that you see the success of your idea being crystallised.

Discipline could means the person did go ahead to do the task, say do a 2km run to lose weight but gave up a week later and binge on more junk food. Somehow, he knew had he persisted, there is a good chance that he might achieve his weight goals but ........

The word "pain" somehow conjures an image of physical pain like sweating profusely, muscle aches and stiffness while exercising. However, the pain of not having what we want, the longing for the thing we want - in the mental sense could be  more painful than the physical one. Have you long to see your loved ones and family or being away from your kids for weeks? 

To avoid pain, people choose to day dream, talk about it but may not want to get into the action part or make their hands dirty, so to speak. By doing that, they thought they are safe and protected in some way. Yes, they do for a short while of not being stressed out solving the problem on hand but they also missed a greater lesson behind it. Each and every one of us has to go through our own life experiences and no one can do it for us. We can both run 2km but the pain you suffered could be 10x more than mine, depending on your perception of the whole matter.  As a father of two young kids, I need to be mindful not to be overly concerned about academic grades for my kids, expecting full marks all the time and that he knows the answers that the teachers want. Failure to do that does not mean anything, in fact it is a great opportunity for him to learn and accept that it is all a part of learning. It is better for him to fail now during his school years than to grow in a protected environment and become a "softie" when he gets into the working world. 

So, brace ourselves and see a bigger picture, the one that God has in mind for us. Each path that we are in, be it relationship, health or financial, there lies a lesson that we can take away from if we care to look deep into it.
Had I not had my shoulder injury, I would not appreciate the importance of doing 1 chin-up at a time, accumulating slowly but surely over time. Each increment is more than a testimony of my improvement but also it lifted up my confidence. 

With confidence, we can then take on the challenges that come our way and not fear that we will be shattered. Live a life of no regrets but one with passion and pursue it relentlessly with discipline.

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