To judge not the circumstances and believe with full faith that this is OVER. NOT will be over as it signifies a process, requiring a time period but it has already healed. This requires me constantly to elevate my thoughts to the highest level as if I could suspend myself from 3 feet high and see my physical body below in pain. It hurts me more to see my spouse upset and affected by it (who won't). But if I continue to add self condemnation , it merely adds fuel to the fire and that is not the right path to take in the first place.
Everything that happened to me happened through me and is for me. I read this in Neale Donald Walsch book - Communion with God. It is quite deep and I need time to work on this. But I think my trading chart might offer me some clues.
So, it is extremely important that we do not let our eyes judge the appearance of things and draw the wrong conclusions. Now, of course I know in great suspicion that I am allergic to soya beans. I had been drinking this fresh for several months and was happy that I had found something healthy and inexpensive for my body. Who would have expect the breakout to be so horrific ?
Because I am staying away from antibiotics and creams with chemicals, I know the healing process would take a while longer than usual. That is the window period that I must not be down, in fact remain cheerful and stay optimistic.
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. Romans 5:3-4
What is that glory? I have no idea, I too am asking for signs to be revealed. But I know a God that loves me unconditionally and always deliver his promise. So I know this blog page is merely a chapter that I am writing among the many wondrous I have in future. To allow this pain, inconvenience and whatever to project to other parts of my life would be unfair to myself, destroying my self-esteem. More importantly, what kind of lessons am I showing to my children?
What will they think and do when they meet with such situations ? Whine and put fault with others? That is what daddy do when he was in that situation. They will emulate my actions and I must stay strong and firm in my conviction that I am healed 100%. It was my eyes that play trick on me.
I am running as usual, enjoying the breeze and scenery around me. The after run effect was the best, I love it ! Things are better than before, family, career, health, all aspects of my life. I am blessed in so many ways. Thank you Father !!!