This week has been quite traumatising for me. First, my son had fallen sick and his fever does not seem to subside after 2 days. I did not give him the usual paracetamol as I want him to build up a strong immunity system. Instead, I get him to drink lots of water, take warm water bath and have plenty of rest. But my wife was worried, today she came home and heard that his temperature was at high of 39 degree, she immediately went to give him the medicine. I was crossed as that would wasted my effort and not allow the body to have a chance to recover naturally.

I wonder if we are too used to the western medicine having lived in a society that is surrounded by hospitals, GPs, etc. We have forgotten that God that created us has also given us food that heals. We have conveniently forgotten that. I am blessed to have found moringa, a truly amazing plant that  I am very attached to. Then  I think again, she is his mother and like all mother, they want the best for their children. Having not seen her son for many hours due to work, she is naturally worried and also guilty for not doing enough for her son. That I can understand but still.....................

God forgive me and help me to make the right decision. This Saturday, we will travel to China to visit my mother in law and have a short trip together. But my wife said a relative of her mother is unconscious now and has been hospitalised. That worried her mother a lot. My wife has no choice but to cut short the trip and even cancelled part of the family outing. I told her it is ok so long as the family is still together. The kids will be too young to understand anyway.

Reading news each night about people contracting this disease and that pains my heart. If it is an act of God then it is fate, I guess but many like hypertension, diabetes and cholesterol are preventable. I have been at home looking after my son for 2 days so today I get a little bored. I decided to hit the road for a quick run while he is taking a nap. It was a quick run in the hot afternoon sun before my lunch. I felt great after the run, letting go of my lethargy and unnecessary stress that hang over me sometimes. 

Thank you Lord for his amazing way to educate me and make me do things that I may not able to see far away. I know I love my son unconditionally and any time I would exchange my position with him just to see him smile and laugh again. My heart pains seeing him like this. Father, I pray to you to heal him, rid him of the viral infection that had been toiling his health, get it out of his body permanently and restore him to his happy and bubbly self as before. I thank you Lord!!!!

I didnt like receiving 4 missed calls from my daughter's school yesterday. Then I received a call from my wife saying our daughter had a high fever and the teacher asked her to fetch her home. I had just finished my training and was making my way home. As if this was the first time hearing such news, my dizzy mind got the better of me and I missed two stops in the train station.

I  hated that! As if this is not enough, for some reason, it was pouring heavily near my place. Why do I even blame the rain when it has nothing to do with the fever? I don't know.............

When most things are settled (clothes kept and folded, kids homework revised, laundry done,etc) I went to her room to pray for her. I know that this praying will work as it is not the first time. I just needed more faith and confidence that God will answer my prayers! I hate to see my daughter feeling miserable and unwell, lying on the bed with no appetite and restless.

So I conjure an image with sound of her chirpy voice and a picture of her happily wearing her new uniform to school. She gets excited with every small new thing (we adults can learn from her). The cough is gone, the fever is gone and things are back to normal. And if things are back to normal, she would be in school now with her friends. 

My wife said she got up twice in the middle of the night to give her more water and apply the cool pad on her forehead. She was merely doing the outpicture of what I prayed for - the recovery of my daughter. The means , which is what my wife was doing was not planned or initiated by me but merely an enactment of my prayers. This the part that got many confused when I say pray for the end in mind and not be bothered with the means of achieving it. The means - the creative ways of achieving the end goals, leave that to God. He has many ways and uses different people and resources to help us get what we want. But we humans are often too stubborn and prefer to take things in our own control and meddle with God's works.

Thank you Lord for your blessing and unconditional love to my family. Your grace is sufficient for me!