So, I did what I could only do, pray. I pray for peace to come to my heart, take away the bad thoughts I harboured in my mind, it was a strong pull and I could sense an inner conflict within. Writing helps since it can not reply me, rebuke me, criticise me but only accept whatever I put through. God, I know you would always be there listening to my sorrows and you knew the pain I had within. Of course, I am not you so I can't know what's your intention to put me through this trial. All I know I need to put my trust in you and that I would walk out of this death valley unharmed.
Guide me with your words , oh Lord and not shun on changing me , if needed. I know I can be stubborn at times and refuse to give in even though I may be wrong. Help me see things from your perspective, raise me higher so I know this mountain in front is not that big after all. Gives me courage and strength to fight this battle but more importantly make it vanish once and for all.
Lord, I thank you and I need you more than ever , tonight. Come to my dreams and give me your signs and wonders, instruct me a path to take, one that is filled with joy and peace. Thank you , Lord.