It has become a habit like my running that requires no reminder. If I did not exercise, I felt something amiss and thus I had conquered running at noon time, one of the hottest to do it. I reckon if I can take the hot weather, then there is no problem running in cooler weather. Unknowingly, I have make this running become a habit of mine, an incidental one.
So, I did not win the 2.3m big sweep which I honestly was not too surprised. There were on and off reasons that keep telling me why it is not possible, it has not happened before, how I cant be so lucky, etc. Each negative thoughts I make a conscious attempt to replace with I had won. I kept repeating the conversation I had with the lady at the Lottery counter - May I have your IC please ? I even imagine her look, probably in her 40's , wearing white, bespectacled and friendly smile. Neville mentioned in one of his tape that his brother, Victor would pass by a building everyday and imagined the marquee carry his family name instead of what he saw. He did that for two years. While timing is at the control of God, I think I should relax and not rush thing to make it happen.
It has its appointed season to harvest and my job is to get into the feelings of the wish fulfilled and leave the rest to God. Worrying, second guessing, doubting are not helpful in the process at all. But I guess it is also natural to have doubts and it is important to recognise it, accept it and slowly replace it. Forcing it to go away is not the right way of doing things. I remember Nevile said our mind is like a wild animal, it is tough to control and day, noon and night , we must tame it.
Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.Matthew 5.5
Meek here refers to taming the wild mind and not refer to the timid nature of a person. I relate that to picking the coins concept. If I am picking a hundred or a thousand like the ten coin, then over a period of time, it would be like second nature to me, nothing surprising or unusual. And the more I picked it , the more I believe I got it. The same as the lottery ticket. In the past, I tend to think it is a waste of money, with the odds of winning is low and it is stupid to engage in it. Basically, I am eating my own words and had a limiting belief about winning the lottery, attributing it to pure luck and because I had not win before , I simply categorised myself into the "not so lucky" box. How unfortunate and untrue this theory is.
Since I started it, then I must break this limiting belief by proofing to myself that I am a lucky person, picking money everywhere, favors come to me, assignments swarm to me effortlessly, winning is easy and so is having money! I am a lucky guy, hahaha.
Not only will I win the lottery, I also have a brand new laptop for free. That shows how lucky I can be. I will update often on my thoughts and progress, stay tuned.
Stay lucky , stay healthy.