Sis-in-law was accompanying Dad to the hospital, in a taxi as he has difficulty walking. After waiting more than 24 hours, he is still in the observation ward as I am writing this. He looks fine compared to many elders I saw there, frail and fearful, I guess (who wouldn't be?)
He was due for his check up only on 29 Dec this month but he was anxious and kept thinking about it. I am sad to say he attracts what he wanted, his fear became a reality. While the X-rays and blood tests thus far revealed no major problems, he is still required to stay in hospital for a few days to observe his low sodium level. Dad has hypertension and one thing I know he goes for regular check and visit his GP more often than most people I know.
The checks are fear induced, the constant worrying that something might be wrong with his body though many elders at his age (Dad is >80 years old) are very much weaker than him. Yes, we are indeed blessed not to take care of him as he is very independent and is thus far able to take care of himself.
Lord, help me to steer clear of any negativity at this phase of my life and renew my mind with tons of good news and positivity. Make me addict to it and never forsake your words for whatever reasons. The mind is like a animal that needs to tamed else it runs wild with all sorts of negative things.
Dad, be strong not only for yourself but also your children and grandchildren. You are strong ,Dad, you have been I know since Mum left us years ago. It has been a lonely journey without your partner and I know you didn't want to talk about it and somehow felt bad. Forgive yourself, Dad as God has already forgiven you and all of us! Perhaps, I bear your genes, look tough on the outside but emotional on the inside.
Dad I see you cycling around the neighbourhood as before, happy to see you playing with the grandson and all. You are strong , Dad!